Tony didn't do anything wrong, technically speaking. He's the kind of man that's like a hawk. There's not much warmth in them. They are too individual and too driven to notice me. He's not the right mix for me.
What should I do? Stop keeping my hopes up too often, I guess.
Love hurts. First is the rejection, even if that is avoided then there's the misunderstanding, the disappointment, and the disloyalty and the breakups. Should I start seriously consider not having romantic love in my life? I didn't have much for years anyways.
Sunday, December 27, 2009
Wednesday, October 28, 2009
Why do I want to cry?
See the thing about love is, it is really like religion. In that you never really know if it exits, but you've just to believe. And that as much as I wish I could believe, I couldn't.
Wish love is as simple and as gratifying as drug. You take it and you feel good already, regardless of whether you have faith in it or not. It'll change you, even though you are in denial.
There is a chance that yoga classes might change things. And there is a chance that sex might to. Right now, I'm working with alcohol. Does it make me weak? Would it be better to do with sex? I wonder. Well the fact that I don't have a bed yet might make it tricky.
Wish love is as simple and as gratifying as drug. You take it and you feel good already, regardless of whether you have faith in it or not. It'll change you, even though you are in denial.
There is a chance that yoga classes might change things. And there is a chance that sex might to. Right now, I'm working with alcohol. Does it make me weak? Would it be better to do with sex? I wonder. Well the fact that I don't have a bed yet might make it tricky.
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- lk
- There are so many things that I loved, so many things that I regretted, so many emotions that I can't explain and so many thoughts that I can't help. This is the most honest account of who I am.